Well, it is complicated. Blog is code word for doing something from the heart and not getting paid. That is why I choose another word to describe what I do, "cloud novel." It is about putting writing on the cloud as it occurs, snatched from moments of contemplation, inspiration, fear, and love.
Have you ever been a source of conflict?
Why yes, yes I have. This is why I often avoid traditional pathways (for better or worse). Put in a social situation as more than a casual visitor for a couple hours and I tend to become a little hard to manage. Because I'm a know-it-all at heart. I never want to be in a position where two people are arguing over me. I want it always to be about keeping myself humble and set on an observing course. Otherwise how can I create fabric?
I do realize that this travel-as-cleansing-agent notion is problematic––if my teenage heroes were Ghandi, Hendrix, Lao Tsu, Gary Snyder, and the protagonist of the Idiot, I did not fully realize the implications. The Idiot as originally conceived by Dostoevsky was a thorny character, because his purely motivated actions created a wake of real world turmoil and conflict. This was later emended, suggesting that the great Russian writer saw a redemptive quality in the Idiot and his ways.
But the fact remains: Seeking is a narrow way and must be balanced by a continuous sense of being found.
When writing––particularly longform Arisugawa Park––I often motivate myself through envisioning a bouldery mountain in the Sierra Nevadas that I have been climbing all day. Accomplishing a section or paragraph to my liking can be a moment of sitting on a ledge, surveying new territory and having a pale pilsen. Tomorrow more climbing... which I absolutely love, because the route I am on I have never traversed and cannot see a clear finish to. The adventure of explorative writing––Dharma Bums, Mowgli, TinTin, and Siddhartha as touchstones.
Have you been staying up on the flute?
After a two weeks hiatus and following a studio wake, John and I reconvened in the studio last night, getting down a rough, newly conceived middle section to Fly Away Home. It involved the creation of 41 sound files within a four hour period. John will layer this shit today and I'll carry an architecturally sound demo of the song with me to Siquijor, for a week of contemplation. Then back to Dumaguete and the final iTunes worthy single.
The original guitar-heavy instrumention we laid down for Fly Away Home is up on Soundcloud, the third of three distinct "sampler" Alchemy songs. The song is being reconfigured texturally, in a way that is only really possible in the studio. The opening guitar, bass, and cymbal part remains, but a more chunk-a-chunk part comes in in the middle. Oh and I threw up some vocals––the last take was kind of cool, though have not had a chance to listen back. I imagined I was singing to my girlfriend, standing luminous some nighttime, beach establishment audience.
This evolving work-in-progress may be worth putting up on Soundcloud in a couple days.